About the subject of feeding..

This has been a topic brought up by me before but it is always a good 
subject anytime because of it's importance to any vamp's life. 
I am a 44 year old vamp and knew of my bloodlust as a child when I would 
hide in the closet and feed apon my self. My empathic abilities and 
desire to psy feed came later as a teen. During most of my adult life as 
an energy feeder, I have been a blood/psychic vamp and found that I 
quenched my thirst with a some blood energy feeds a week, but found 
myself unconciously psy feeding all the time on the emotional and mental 
energy of anyone around my space.
 
Then came the time I found that combining my feeding during sex became 
the ultimate energy feed for me, and then I sent out for this in my 
hunts all the time. I realized that I was living for those moments and 
nothing more. My energy needs were well met as long as I sensed a worthy 
partner whom freely gave me this ultimate feed. There would be dining in 
a club with free flowing convo where I could begin my energy feed and 
this would be followed later by the blood feed with sex. I lived for 
this ultimate energy need for many years always living alone and thus 
kept my strength most of the time, usually falling back on psy feeding 
when the other was not available to me. And I would say that this is 
what sustained me over some difficult times when my energy level was low.

Now, I have one regular donar whom I feed from, from a couple times a 
week to several times, depending on when she is available to me. I do 
not feed on the blood energy much anyone, finding that my psy 
abilities/feeding with sexual energy provide me enough energy I need for 
my strength. I am pleased about this arrangement as this donor is quite 
committed to me and I do not need to hunt as I once did. Maybe it is now 
my age but then most souls grow with time and therefore change. I 
believe I have been fortunate most of my life since I was old enough to 
know of the bloodlust as a child. I knew I was born a vamp and so knew 
of my destiny early. I still live alone and would not have it any other way.

As for the times I have found myself unable to feed, my life suffered 
from lethargy and low energy levels. I can even recall times I did not 
even get out of bed. There have been many years since then, but I 
remember quite clearly the emotional and energy drain. As for the moon, 
I get an energy boast from the monthly full moon and I always look 
forward to this time.